Top Songs on Loop
Chat is this heat
Forest Fire - Above The Noise
GEM ALERT. bro ok picture this. close your eyes. open your eyes again so you can read this. it's 3am and you're just playing bullshit on roblox. you stumble across a game called Camper Van Trip. it's literally a survive as far as you can in a van with 2-4 other people and you can't talk to them cus youll be damned if that fucking company gets a pic of your id. a fun little tee hee is you can collect casettes to play as you make your way through different terrains. anyway long story short the game was soooo fun with no communication and reminded me of my all-time favourite fanfic that I am currently rereading (44 chapters, 300k word count). this song is a banger and if anyone wants to tell me otherwise ill blow your shit smoove off twin.
Oh bitch I be Bumpin
Afterbody - Jae Stephens
Diva literally pumping out bangers 24/7. Feels like early 2000s core music. Politeful bumpin that. My fav song that got me into her work is body favors it's so good. Music that would be in a femme confidence bop playlist i think. i assume.
Very relaxing and soothing yum!
Deewaana Deewaana - A.R. Rahman, Irshad Kamil
ok listen. im a poser i found this song thru my insta reels. BUT!!!!!! it's so beautiful i genuinely love the bounce to it like it's rocking me back and forth, the guitar comes in with a sturdy presence that's not aggressive but still shows dominance in the song. i've been meaning to dip more into this genre since i know a few other songs too but i love my scene/emo music so much still i can't bear to part just yet
MY MOST FAVOURITE ALBUM BY MY MOST FAVOURITE BAND
O MY ❤️
I need whoever is reading this to understand. I LOVE Mother Mother. This album specifically came across my life at a very important and necessary time. I'm gonna get #real because this meant so much to me. I was going through a LOT in my life between having left an incredibly toxic relationship, moving to a different city with the help of a few friends, and starting school at a big university to continue my education. I struggled a lot for a year and a half just trying to get my footing again with barely any money, no car, and constantly struggling with my gender dysphoria. I think I clocked in at top 0.005% of listeners one year because I was listening to this album on loop every day no breaks. When I say this is the best album they have ever made I mean it. YES they have so many other amazing songs and I can't say I hate any of their works. But also I'm no die-hard obvi there's some songs I just do not vibe with. ANYWAY HERE'S MY TOP THREE YAY!!!!!
#1 - Body
My number one most favourite song, it is MY "I am trans" song no one else can have it I already called dibs. I closely identify with the song's vibe, during the time I was constantly struggling between just letting the woods take me or keep fighting to persist in what felt like a world that I was not meant to be a part of. Very much re-experiencing teenage angst and using creepypasta fanfiction to help cope. Also my favourite part starts at 2:22 I just love the guitar bit something about it dingle dangles in my noggin just right. Anyway yeah this is my favourite song don't say nothing to me about it I will not be listening.
#2 - Try To Change
Very similar experiences tying me to this song as well, more-so the constant feeling that I am an inherently evil person because I am autistic. For me, this song encapsulates the constant uphill battle of self-improvement but every setback feels like "have I even done anything to change my outcome?" with the constant fear of wondering whether I will stay on this path of constantly trying and failing to do better than my predecessors until I get too old to fight any longer. And yet, I persist. And yet, I try to change.
#3 - Wisdom
Really a classic song, feels like a good wind down after the other heavier topics but still bears weight to me. The lamentations of growing up and not realizing how far I was set back because of my own inability to reach past my enclosure into the outside world. "If I had just listened to the advice of the people around me" type shi. If only I had taken my life more seriously instead of just letting whatever happened happen, if I had the wisdom I have now I would have been able to accomplish more. BUT that's life! C'est la vie or whatever! Really good song, wayyy more chill than the other two but still carries an important message that I'm sure many have thought about a time or two before. Yippee!